RUTHLESS: The Complete Rockstar Romance Series Boxed Set by Vivian Lux

Author:Vivian Lux [Lux, Vivian]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Literature & Fiction, Women's Fiction, Contemporary Women, Romance, New Adult & College, Romantic Comedy, Contemporary Fiction, Action & Adventure, Fantasy, Humor, Mystery; Thriller & Suspense, Crime, Sagas
Amazon: B01NCNVYJT
Published: 2016-12-20T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter 19

Keir

America is a big fucking country. You know this, on some subatomic level. But once you get out on the road, putting mile after mile behind you, then you truly see how massive it is.

Massive and ever-changing. Phoenix was five hours from Los Angeles, but a whole different planet. The rains that had followed us out of California had caught up overnight, soaking the desert and unleashing the smell of creosote.

Even the diesel assault of the truck stop couldn't hide that strange smell that hung in the air. When I had packed up my belongings into two duffel bags and hit the road from Buffalo to LA, that smell was what really impressed the hugeness of this country upon me. I'd never smelled anything like it before. The strange smells, the alien colors of the desert, all browns and tans, completely foreign to my East Coast eyes. The earth, normally cracked and solidified from lack of water, seemed to radiate the smell from its very essence. Fresh, clean, earthy--it smelled like rain... It smelled like life, it smelled like a new fucking start for a twenty-one-year-old who had just gathered up the pieces of his broken heart.

Later on, as I browsed around, Googling, trying to figure out what that alien smell was, I found out the Spanish explorers had named the creosote bush "Hediondilla," which literally meant "little stinker." I guess it didn't mean the same thing to everyone.

I inhaled deeply as I strode around the rest stop, smelling the smell of new beginnings even as I licked old wounds. That talk with Scarlett had me all jumbled, and I didn't want to think about it anymore. Breaking out into a stupid little jog, I tried to focus on the landscape around me. The whole reason we chose to make this tour by bus was to see the fucking country, and here I was, barely conscious of where I was.

Here on the side of the highway, inhaling the scent of starting over. I resolved to do now what I couldn't do back then. Start over again for real. Holding on to the past was hurting Scarlett just as much as it was hurting me. Whatever expectations I had were clearly wrong. She was a new person, and I had a new life; how did I think we'd fit together again?

It was pathetic, really.

I could be civil. I could be a gentleman. I could let it all go.

As I watched our driver for this leg fill the tanks on the tour bus, I made a solemn resolution. I was going to leave Scarlett alone. That was the only way I could fix this.

Once I came up with a plan, I never failed to put it into action. I wondered if Scarlett or my brother noticed the change in me as I slid into the rhythm of touring like a well-worn pair of blue jeans. Tearing the roof off of stadiums and arenas every evening, then falling asleep to the gentle sway of the bus as it transported us to the next night.

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